June 17th, 2007

Screwed Over Yet Again

As if I didn't have enough on my mind lately...

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That aside, the only other interesting part of the night was that I had the phrase "pub.anneliate.crewl" stuck in my head most of the time. I figured out where "pedagogy" came from (an episode of Home Improvement), but I'm absolutely puzzled as to the latter :s "Crewl" is about the only part I can identify. It comes from one of the Geneforge games, where there's someone named "Battlemaster Crewl". Why that got stuck in my head when I haven't played the game in ages is another mystery in itself, and I'm not even going to bother trying to figure it out right now.

So otherwise, now I start into a nice long string of 9 days closing, with a single day off between the 4th and 5th day. Yeah, my next paycheck will be nice and big, but that's about the only good part :\ In tomorrow at 8, with Manoah and Mark, which is going to be fun, given Mark and Manoah's utter disdain for each other, but whatever. I do look forward to trying to prove to Manoah that he can indeed make it through a shift with the guy, and that he doesn't have to keep avoiding him, but I can't picture it doing any good. Also want to ask him exactly what he meant the other night as well. He started with the questions about "Crystal" again, and I could only stare at him with a look of "I thought you read the email" in my eyes, which just got them after me even more. I made it quite clear when I sent it to him that there was no such person, and the only reason I even said so was that the question caught me by surprise, and I couldn't think of a "safe" reason for saying no.

And one other planned thing for now. After some consideration, the main cause of my frustration recently. I figure even if it doesn't help alleviate the problem, it'll at least be good to know I've at least said something about it to someone besides myself (I hope). First of all, it's on the main page of SPark's site. The only item (currently) with an ETA of October. After a lot of thinking, I realized the main thing that filled me with such rage about it was that, when I read it, I instantly thought whoever commissioned it wanted it in the style of my fursona. Probably because I have only one full picture (which is where my userpic comes from), and although I haven't seen it posted to the internet anywhere in quite a while, I constantly worry that someone else has it too, and they've decided to adopt it as their fursona. Yes, it's honestly an incredibly inane thing to get caught up on and be so worried about, but no matter what I tried I just couldn't shake the feeling.

Is it natural to be so obsessed over such a thing? It sure doesn't seem like it, but I really don't know. And this is also where the "not being the first" thing comes in. I wanted to be the first one (since I found that site) to commission such a thing, but it's obvious how that turned out. Honestly, it's not like I could given my current living situation either. Yes, in a sense, I do have enough money, but I'm not going to spend anything below $4,000 unless I absolutely have no other choice, and also, tails? Seemed a bit risky at first, but now it seems like everyone in this house is fine with them. Footpaws, as I plan on commissioning eventually? Might be risking it there, but if anyone asks, they're just slippers. I've seen bear paw slippers and such in stores before, so it's not like such a thing would be too different. But an entire fursuit? Aside from that I'd hardly ever have a chance to wear it, questions would be asked. Questions that would be good for getting everything out in the open for once and for all, but that'd be about the only good part of them.

So what to you think? Pathetic? Some true points? A perfectly valid thing to be so worried about? Whatever. It's just nice to finally get it out in the open.

And one other completely off-topic thing for now. Finally realized what was being referenced in a certain episode of the Drew Carey Show. Kate gets everyone not-too-valuable gifts, because she's really low on money, and Drew gets them nice stuff, causing her to get angry and say something about "I had to buy cheese with a Z. Did I just say that out loud? Hug!". I *believe* the "cheese with a Z" bit is referring to cheez whiz. I feel so proud of myself now :3

Also got that new fan put together and set up successfully. Whoever was responsible for making the assembly directions must've thought they were funny, because it's the first time I've seen the words "fan" and "flange" together in the same sentence :p Speaking of which, I really should go downstairs and check if my laundry's done being washed yet. I know that doesn't really connect, but my laundry hamper is right next to my fan, and I'd tossed my uniform into it upon getting home from work, and you figure out the rest~ I've got to go put my stuff in the dryer.
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In a Rush~

This is really nice. Woke up at 5, checked a few things on my laptop, and was rather disappointed to find nothing new. Meh to that. Hopefully things'll change eventually. Came down here to find Adam in front of the computer, and the first thing he said to me was "I just got home" meaning "I just got on the computer and you're not kicking me off of it right away". Asked him if he knew what we were having for supper, and apparently we're going to Swiss Chalet. However, it's now 6:00, with no sign of Mom and Dad (apparently they're at the church for some meeting concerning the trip to Indonesia), and I have to work at 8. Unless they get home within the next half hour, and we leave right away, I don't think I'm going to be going. Have to be at work for 8, as I already said, and the minimum possible time for calling in either sick or to say you'll be late is three hours before your shift starts. Excellent. Adam said something about not wanting to go either though, so meh, there's a slight chance they'll just decide to wait 'till tomorrow night. I have to work then as well (and I *really* don't want to), but I could always call and say I won't be in 'till 9.

It's also Fathers Day today. Don't plan on giving Dad his card right away, because I figure by waiting 'till tomorrow, we'll have to stop by the bank anyways so I can get money for my hair cut, and I can also easily just run in and get $100 US. The only bad thing about that (aside from "using" so much before I even get my pay stub) is that we have to be up and off for Tilbury at 12:00 :\ Therefore I'm not going to be able to stay up more than an hour or so after I get home tonight. Feh.

And one other amusing thing for now. This article. As you can plainly see the comments went completely out the window from the very beginning. I posted a comment on said comments, with the username "~". I was rather expecting to simply get flamed for said comment, but yeah :o It does make me feel sort of guilty, but even so, what can I say? "Oh don't take it so seriously. I'm just joking around with you"? Heh. But the disc thing is really weird. Haven't had that happen to any of my CDs (yet), but then again, I only take them out of their packages about once a year (and yes I do realize the article is talking about Blu-ray Discs, but whatever) :x

Mom and Dad have just gotten back now, and neither Adam or Naomi wanted to go (Adam, purely so he could stay here and chat with people on MSN and IMVU :\), so they've opted to go get KFC instead. Whatever~
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