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I Need a Dictionary

"Objectivity" is the word I was looking for, but to sit here for half an hour thinking about where I notice it the most and trying to figure out the right word is hardly practical. Being in the proper mood last night (which was something given the circumstances to begin with) led me to adding and removing some items from my profile here, and I was stuck for finding that last word. Something that can be defined as making decisions based on fact and not personal bias, but it's good enough for now. The only problem is how it's a bit easier to find things I previously didn't go out of my way to talk about, but they're not worth the trouble, as I can't expect things to work properly if I don't take some risks. Not that they're terribly large risks either, but it's something I wouldn't have done before. I'd give an example too, but let's just say it involves George, Manoah, and me. If I try to think about it in any further detail, I start seeing so many shades of gray that the entire world might as well be monochrome. It feels good in a way, but I know I've felt like this before too - like something needs to change but I don't know what, however, this time I actually do.

Now, with that in mind you might think today was going fairly well too, but it isn't, because I've been expecting something to happen all week and it still hasn't, made only worse by the weekend being here, which means there's little to no chance for several days. About the only okay thing to happen thus far was one of the people I'm commissioning responding to a message I sent them last night. They said I could expect a more detailed message from them later today once they had a chance to work on things, but I'm not holding my breath to get a response before I leave for work. Pessimistic? Yes, but I made a list of all the commissions I have going right now (including the replacement tail I should've received a picture of earlier this week), and right now they total nine, at a combined price of exactly $379.71. Mind you, they date back to February 14th, so it's not as if I bought all of them recently, but yeah. I don't think I'll ever truly be able to erase that entire list either, because I like always having something on the go. I think of it as needing some outside-of-work connection to other people, and it works well enough for that. As a matter of fact, I think I might keep this list going anyways and just add a fifth "Date Finished" column instead, because that would be fun to go back and look at. Unfortunately, if I were to do so I'd have to go all the way back to that commission I got from Cooper and find all the details for every single commission I've bought between then and this February, but I could do that tomorrow. Or when I get home from work tonight instead, but right now I'll probably just use that time to do what I normally would be right now - working on Picross DS or whatever else.

I think that's a good plan though. I'll at least make up a list of names so I know who to look for, but that shouldn't take too long. Well, the first thing will actually be to wipe off my laptop screen. I had an accident with a can of pop last night, and while it largely missed my laptop, it still made enough of a mess. All the way up the wall over by the door, which is a good five feet away, but that's mostly taken care of. I just didn't think to get a damp facecloth for this screen then~

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