And what do I blame for all this? My story. The part I mentioned not liking (which is an understatement at any rate) last night has been addressed now but wasn't then, so I sort of want to say the whole theme behind the dream(s) was me changing into how I'm depicted there. Not having a reference doesn't help matters any, but it doesn't seem like an entirely bad way to be. However, if life that other way was as I dreamed of, I don't think I could live with it for very long. Or maybe I'm reading far too much into this. I've had my fair share of disturbing dreams before, and they all passed very quickly. Since I've mentioned it though, the story is currently the source of some difficulty. It's shaping up to be longer than any of the others they have written, which is bad not only because there's another commissioner waiting, but also because they want to ask for extra money, but also don't, because I brought it up before and they said that wouldn't be necessary. On the good side of things, I was given the opportunity to suggest story expansion pricing, but on the bad, I've thus far only extended the offer that, if it should become an issue, I'd be willing to pay for their other commissioner's story in return for their patience. I want to see it through. The author wants to see it through. Now this other guy just needs some incentive to wait a bit longer, if they're at all getting impatient right now.
It seems a funny coincidence that if I do go through with that, it'll be another $40 I'm spending. It started with Manoah wanting to borrow $40, then withdrawing that much at the bank tonight to give Mom gas money, and now soon to come is a visit to Money Mart where I'll be putting, yes, $40 on my card, after which Manoah should be paying me back $40, and that should finally be it, although there's a slim chance I'll spend that exact amount on foodstuffs at Real Canadian Superstore in a couple days. I need cereal, pop, and Mr. Noodles, along with jellybeans from Walmart and random snacks from Dollarama if I decide to visit either of those places as well. It definitely helps that I'm getting paid ~$540 this week, but 40 dollar charges with such frequency will add up pretty quickly.
At least I can take comfort in the fact that I don't plan to go anywhere tomorrow. Not with my debit card, that is, and I have only enough cash to buy a couple donuts from Tim Hortons or something. Although I could also go up the street to Harvey's again and buy another poutine, since I learned they're only $3.79 tonight, but no, I can't do that. If I were to, it'd become a regular thing, and I can't afford, both in terms of money and in regards to weight, to be eating there at least once a week. In any case though, I've been everywhere and done everything I plan to for tonight. Maybe tomorrow I'll finally finish leveling up the rest of my party in SoulSilver (I've been using the second-lowest experience modifier code for some reason), and there's also some new music I want to put on my PSP. And I need to fix it as well, because it fell to the ground from quite a height at work the other night, but yeah. I have a list of things to start off with, and that's an excellent place to be done this entry~