Karadur Inacu  (karadur) wrote,
Karadur Inacu 

I Have Reasons to Not Work

But even so, it feels like I'm taking such advantage of them lately. I asked Trevor to take my shift last Sunday, and am already considering warning George that I won't be in until 9 on Wednesday, because of Mom's birthday. Although in my defense they are worthwhile concerns. I don't want to have to go to work and essentially be dragging myself around for my entire shift because I can't focus, and as for the coming week, when was the last time I had to ask a favor like that? Mind you I don't even know what his answer will be, but as yet it looks like I'll be the only one with money (Adam has $100, but apparently ninety of that is going toward paying off a loan, and I haven't yet asked Naomi but I'm not too hopeful about her), so it'd be nice to be around for more than just "Happy Birthday, here's your supper, here's your present, and now I have to leave for work." Speaking of which, for the moment I plan to buy her a cake from Real Canadian Superstore or Food Basics or Sobeys. Or no Frills, even, but no matter which place, an already-made cake that looks really good, and for her present, will be buying - maybe as soon as later tonight - the things needed to make one of my cakes for her to take to this reunion next month. As it turned out, she didn't have enough money on Thursday and said she wouldn't need me to make one after all, but that's a little too disappointing for me. And maybe she'll also get a card with $40 in it or something. A card, yes, definitely, but money all depends on how much I have left. Finally (because there's always more), plans for supper that night. If we (Dad and I) can figure out what she usually gets from that fish place somewhat near the train station, she'll get fish, while the rest of us get pizza, and if not, well, I haven't considered that yet, because I could just as easily go pick through the recycling bin or freezer and find a box of fish in there for ideas.

So yeah. I added an item to my list of little things that make me happy last night, and this is, to a degree, one of them, but all this planning and uncertainty and the thought that I'll be the sole provider for yet another occasion is somewhat saddening. I still remember the days of being told we were going out for supper and only feeling excited instead of trying to pick something under $10 as a favor to the person paying. Or rather, between the two there were also quite a few occasions where I (and Adam and Naomi as well) would ask "How much can we spend?" and make our selection according to that, but yeah. Now I get asked the same thing, and my answer has, to my memory, always been as much as you want, up to $30. There's something to be said for only doing this once in a while, because I don't think it'd be nearly so much fun every other week.

Aside from that though, I'm really not doing much else today. Poking around on Fenopy and changing my torrent's description to fix the Wikipedia link and add a preview, writing this, and just generally still feeling a bit off. Not "off" in the way I've been over the weekend though. This is more going back to how I used to be, and while it's familiar, I don't want to either, because some of the things I've changed or added since then are nice, and I don't want to just give up on them again. Somewhat amusingly though, thinking about that is making me go right back to feeling as I did before, and as I have to leave for work in half an hour, that wouldn't do. I'm not sure what (if anything) I'll do with my night though. Manoah's supposed to be working 4 to midnight or something like that, so if he remembered I can get my money from him, and then as for getting done work after that, well, I don't know. I'm done at 9 again tonight, so I want to go out to Real Canadian Superstore (or Walmart) tonight and look around, but there isn't anything I really want from either place, so I'm wondering if it's worth it, and whether or not I'd have enough time to go to both places anyways. Well, I suppose I could go out to both and try running through to grab whatever I need, then also check Dollarama's hours, because I need chocolate bars from them to make another one of my cakes. And then I'll most certainly also stop at Tim Hortons for another apple cider (and / or at the one nearest work to get Manoah something as well, as I promised him a treat for allowing Trevor to take my shift), but yeah, plenty to do.

To end this entry on a fun note though, as is also in my list, I got a head start last night. I took over drive through for James so he could eat and go back to wash some of his dishes, and instantly being in a better mood because of that, thought there was no better time to try introducing myself as Karadur. And it worked, for the most part. Never before have I gone from being extremely sullen to shaking with excitement in less than five minutes <3 But that'll be it now, for I've run out of things to write about~

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