All the same, if you are on my friends list and object to anything I say when writing entries like these, please don't hesitate to tell me. I'd like nothing more than for somebody else to take an opposing stance and not back down, but mock-arguments are rather impractical, and the one discussion I've had thus far ended because the other person had to leave for "Reasons that are unrelated to the conversation", leaving my only other option to be seeking professional help, and as long as there's even the slightest chance that I can help myself, I'll pick that any day. Or at least any day when I am in this state of mind. It's not lucidity, and I'm fairly certain it isn't hypomania either, but I do feel more clearheaded. It's like I've finally put those past concerns behind me, and, in the case of tonight am looking ahead at what's to come with the same point of view as I did before. I'm looking forward to work, but only because I have cookies to share and tomorrow night off. Aside from that, Manoah and James close, so I'll probably get stuck on drive through yet again with an even bigger pile of dishes waiting for me at the back than there were on Wednesday. But I can expect and anticipate that much, and can also look forward to maybe getting a ride home with Manoah and asking his Mom and Tryphena if they'll be attending Heart and Stroke's Christmas party. And then I also wish George worked tonight so I could apologize for my behavior on Wednesday, but with any luck the new schedule will be up tonight, and I'll be on there to work at least one more close with him. My desire to bring him or any other closer on a long walk home with me one night probably won't turn out, but we simply have to work one last close together and go to 7-11 one more time before he takes off to go to school or wherever it is he's going.
I'm not sure what else to say though. I am very glad I have tomorrow off, both because of these things and I have quite a few new torrents to sort out (I downloaded 24 alone yesterday, but 15 of them came from season 6 of Top Chef), but there's also still a whole day to go, and with the way things have been going recently, I'll probably be asked to work in somebody else's place tomorrow or something. For right now, it's time to go fill a couple margarine tubs with cookies and get my uniform ready to work. I think I might've put my five-year pin through the wash last night, backing paper and all, but the rest should be fine, and at least this time I'll have an excuse to not be wearing my newest pin~