Outside of work though, I'm not sure how to describe things here. Talking with Dan has finally reached a point where he said that... "I think I understand how you're feeling better. Maybe not exactly, but I have a much better idea than I did before.", and I was glad to hear that at first, but in the time since, I've begun to pick it apart again. I don't think I've been focusing specifically on feelings when talking to him. I've been focusing on how things come together in my mind, because that's where the best chance of changing something to a positive effect lies. He, however, seems to have taken my emails a different way, by saying "You have very strong feelings over it. It’s not always what’s intended by the video, but that’s what it means to you", in particular. I know the movies and other things aren't intended to be perceived the way I see them, Dan. If you're just going to take what I said and make a generalized statement telling me why I feel the way I do, apparently completely ignoring my explanations before though, then hell, I might as well go back to being on my own. Not as a threat, but as a simple matter of that I don't have the patience for / interest in being diminished like that. At the same time though, I feel that maybe it's just my mood right now. I previously said that I wouldn't try to explain these things to anyone anymore, because doing so led to problems, and sure enough, that's exactly what has happened here, so instead of forcing him to accept and respect how I feel, I should just keep it to myself. Some things are a little more clear to me than they were before, but overall, it's not worth the repeated anger and stress every time I think of something else to say, and he shoots it down. I've even just closed Instantbird, and it will remain closed at least until I get home from work, because I don't want to have to deal with this right now. Maybe what I'll do is write a pointed, angry email in FutureMail when I get home tonight, so I can have said what's on my mind, and delete it before the week is up, should I manage to quell this irritation.
It's time I was off to work though. Should be a short shift, but Laura already asked last night if I would be willing to stay later to help them get caught up, if it ended up being busy. I saw no reason to specifically say no then, but it depends on the night. If nothing else, I work only three hours, and have much more of the night than I normally would after a supper shift. I'm fine with that~