All I said was "It's probably going to bother me more if I don't say anything, so are you home already?" Just that, and now I'm back to feeling such thorough distaste for all things concerning August that I feel like calling it off. No hesitation this time either. Just cancel everything, because I can't continue this. I don't even want to continue writing about it because... I can't even put that into words. I feel so utterly conflicted about the whole fiasco that I just want to walk away from it and be done. Still, it's only fair that I wait until Monday. That's when Dan said he would be home again, so if I don't hear from him then or on Tuesday (by email, for the moment), I'll be more justified in having reason to feel sullen, but only for as long as it takes me to get over that and have a serious discussion with him about how we should proceed.
At any rate, that's all I can muster for tonight. It's almost 7am, making this clearly the latest I've been up in quite a while. I don't expect anything significant of tomorrow just yet, but the first step will be to wake up with a still-working laptop. So long as that comes true, there will be more time for whatever else catches my interest~