Where cuddling is concerned, I think the only reason I want to be able to do that is because to my mind, cuddling is a very emotional act, and as yet, I don't share anything with Dan that allows us to have that sort of connection. Problem with me is that even if I was able to put everything else aside, getting myself into that situation would see me having an anxiety / panic attack, and that wouldn't be very good, so what else could we do to to come close to that emotional feeling of cuddling? Why not just talk? I really liked talking to him there, but not in the typical "This is what I think" way. What I really enjoyed was the conversation(s) focused on what he and I felt, so could we do that again? Absolutely. As I told him just recently, I've been thinking a bit about bringing the non-truncated version of that story I commissioned next time I go to visit him, so I can possibly read through that aloud, and share my feelings on it, now that I'm more or less out of that mess. One thing I've already told him is how it still annoys me to think about the author lying on behalf of the person I was supposed to get a free picture from, because they thought I would be as fussy with it as I was with the story. I mean, really, how is that acceptable? I've also been thinking about what would happen if, one day, Squeeze and / or Totts or some other friend were to be over here, and saw that story. What would happen if they asked me who wrote it, so they could see about getting one of their own? I had it worked out in a better, more concise way a couple nights ago, but simply stated, I'd refuse to tell them. The service that person offers is a unique (and in some ways valuable) one, and I would not deny anybody else the opportunity to take advantage of it, but could not knowingly subject any interested persons to the author's dishonesty and advantageous nature. How does that sound? Like I'm still a bit worked up over what happened? Maybe I am, but that is how I feel, even if it comes across as a bit stubborn. As for other things (that I want to talk to Dan about), they mostly concern what I said / asked in the email I sent the night I came back home, along with MFF, and wanting to hear more about what he said regarding my living arrangement the first day I was there (refer to my entry from November 1st / 2nd for more information).
On that note though, I'm nearly late for leaving for work once again, so I will waste no time ending this. Hopefully Dan has either responded to my messages in MSN, or emails by the time I get home, and if not, I have other emails to deal with, along with Partners in Time to continue playing. Several things to look forward to~