Karadur Inacu  (karadur) wrote,
Karadur Inacu 

It's What I Wanted

I can't quite believe that we'd get rain and thunder in January, but I can hear it just outside my window right now. Isn't that weird? By this time next week, there'll most likely be snow on the ground again, but for now? Rain. It is nice though, because just last night I was thinking to myself that it would be nice to have rain / a thunderstorm. I like the quiet, muffled sounds of Winter, such as I walked home in on Sunday night, but there's still something to be said for rain. Now that I've started to repeat myself though, what else can I talk about?

Same as yesterday, I feel kind of tired, but this time, waking up early was somewhat out of my control. I don't know what time it was, but at some point after the sun was up, I woke up to the acrid smell of burning rubber, or to my own experiences, burning popcorn. I didn't know where it was coming from, and I couldn't picture anybody making popcorn that early in the morning, so I stuffed a pillow in the window, and did the best I could to breathe through my mouth until I went back to sleep. By the time I woke up again, the smell was gone, and nobody has yet said anything to me about something that might have happened earlier, so I'll just have to remain slightly curious. Otherwise, I did end up deciding to be awake for the day about an hour earlier than I should've, so I'm kind of tired from that. Work yesterday night went well in spite of being tired - I told myself at the beginning of my shift that if I could keep from getting impatient and uptight with customers as I did on Sunday, I'd allow myself supper from Pizza Tonite, which proved adequate incentive - but overall, I'm just in need of not waking up early because I think it's later than it really is.

In similar news, one other good thing that came of last night happened on the way home. As I was walking up toward King St after crossing over the bridge, I noticed somebody at the far side of the intersection, crossing over as though they were going to continue walking down and behind the police station. The timing between us was just right that we came up to the corner at about the same time though, so I figured I'd have to step around them, but then heard "That's pretty ironic!", in a slightly familiar voice. I looked up, and who would be standing just away from me but Squeeze. She explained that she was out on a walk to get away for a bit from some stressful things that were going on at home, so after a moment, I suggested that she could at least walk back to our house with me, and we did that. It was nice to unexpectedly run into and walk with her for a bit, but looking back now, I wish I'd asked if she wanted to come inside for a bit, so I could show her around here. Next time, I suppose, if we don't plan something to that effect before it.

Otherwise, I still have things to work on, so those are keeping me pretty busy, but I notice a pronounced shift in my attitude toward certain other things, at least of late. There are certain obligations and other things I have to attend to that I couldn't be bothered with at first, just because I didn't want to do them. That eventually changed into knowing I should do them, but still not being able to. Following that, my attitude changed to what I've been feeling for the past day or so, which is that I have to deal with those things, with the addition of having procrastinated for long enough leading to almost not being able to do the easier things I wish I could do. For example, I'd rather watch TV shows and play Super Mario World hacks than work on Picross 2, even though I know I want to finish it. That isn't actually one of the things, but it's still pretty close. I think the simplest way of putting it is just that I'm finally tired of procrastinating, so either tonight or tomorrow, I'll finally get on with things, and be relieved for it. For right now though, I'm off to have a shower. I might be going over to Squeeze's place later, so I need to be ready~

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