I was just sitting here though, working on a personal project (if you can call it that), when I remembered something interesting about the way that things happened between Jen and I, that I told mom about, and told dad about, and wanted to write something proper about, but was never quite sure how to do so. Since I still can't justify writing it in my paper journal, to her, this will have to suffice.
I remember the weekend after we finished cleaning the apartment. I remember the first night we were able to sit, and relax, having taken care of our immediate responsibilities.
I can't remember exactly when, but sometime between Thursday and Saturday, I got this feeling that I've had before. The feeling that things were, and had been for long enough to be noticeable, just a bit too perfect. For myself anyway, like I'd become just a bit too settled and content with the way things are going.
"That sounds just fine", you might say, but there's a second half to it.
Things felt just a bit too perfect, and I had this very slight gut feeling that because of that, something was going to go wrong, or would otherwise happen to cause things to change, drastically.
I pushed it out of my head at the time, because I figured it was just a stray thought, that didn't mean anything, but to look at the circumstances now...
I know I've experienced the same sort of thing before, but I can't remember any of those times. I just remember that feeling that things were going perfectly - too perfect, even - and something bad was on the way.
Maybe that's something I can describe to Al Edmonds eventually, and see what we're able to make of it together.
I don't know. I've never put too much stock into the idea of premonition, and it's something that happens very infrequently at best, but I wonder if there's something to it. Maybe it's the same thing that happened that night for Jen and I before. It was so nice to just be able to sit close to each other, and work on our own individual tasks, but as ideal, or even perfect as that was, it only precipitated that fabric problem, which I've had some pretty serious difficulties with...